Eve was enough....

God created Adam and Eve. God loved Eve and she was enough for Him and Adam. There was no other woman  for her to want to be like.
We as woman compare ourselves to each other. We try to be each other , we even make role model of each other. We need to spend more time getting to know the woman God made us to be because we are enough for Him and others. We need to have Him as a role model , he can show us there is only one of you in the world, just like there was one Eve. He can show us we don't need to imitate other woman or compare ourselves. We are the one and only to Him and it's enough.

Rafeki , Lion King

Do you remember that feeling when the doctor hands you your first child.
I remember one second being in extreme pain and telling God I cant do this ,its to much pain to bare. A split second later ,I was crying in joy . When the doctor handed me Olivia I honest felt like the monkey on Lion King , (Rafeki)  I just wanted to hold her up and show the world Gods newest daughter. I honestly felt the the doctor and nurses should have been honored and cheering . It never dawned on me they do this multiple times a day year after year and this was just another baby to them. Well, I felt that same way all over again when I had my son. The pride and joy that second is undiscribable ,you just have to experience it to understand
I remember being so thankful to God and telling Him Ill cherish this gift,this child. It quickly realized there was no way I could raise her without Him, and I never wanted to. From the second I held her it was so important for me to hold her up to Him for every decision. I wanted to teach her how amazing God was and teach her how to build her own relationship with God. Getting her dedicated was mandatory,and when she turned 12 I explained baptism to her. I not only took her to get baptized ,but I did it with her. She is 13 now and I have had the greatest pleasure a mom could have by watching her build her relationship with God .I get to see her unique unbreakable bond with our King grow with each new day. I really believe in what God says when He  said do not hinder the children .I wanted to raise my children from day 1 to be dependent on God first, not me. Everything I learned from God I taught them,I am in awe how much farther ahead they are than I was at that age. I think teaching them, I learned far more from them than they did me. I got to learn pure hope and pure child like faith .
Gal.6 ;2 Bear one another's burdons and so fulfill the law of Jesus . I started fasting months ago and now I fast weekly and its a way of life for me. Just like going to church on Sunday morning or doing daily devotions , it just becomes part of your new lifestyle.Psalms 69:10 When I wept and humbled my soul to fasting , it became my reproach. I have always held others in prayer when I fast. With each week of fasting it was like being pregnant and all those months you become mentally prepared for the job that you will soon take. Well, Finally now when I fast and God lets me know who Ill be fasting for I feel like I'm back in the hospital as the monkey on Lion King holding the newest child of God up to Him. That same feeling I had when I held Olivia for the first time is how I feel when God tells me who to fast for. I feel that love ,I see this person as a child of God ,his son or daughter. I see there innocents and helplessness it all come rushing out of me as I hold this child up high in prayer and present them to the King. I just ask God to search there heart and breathe a new life in with His own perfect breathe. I ask Him to guard them and protect them and adopt them as His own. I believe God lets us feel that emotion of child birth and love and protectiveness and all the other feeling that come together to for an overwhelming joyful experience, so we can use that feeling ,that same love for another as we hold them in prayer. Unlike the world and doctors and nurses I believe God and angels do cheer and get excited a new child is presented. After the fast its like raising a child you always pray for them , you continue to be confident that God has control now and you wait in confidence for the day they begin to build their own unique relationship with Christ.
The reward God give me for fasting is compassion. He really does make your cup overflow. I feel like I have a active volcano inside me that erupts compassion all the time.God has so much compassion for us , and although we only experience a fraction of it , its more than enough .This compassion is the greatest gift I have ever been given and All I can ask God is, Who Am I ?Who am I ,that I get to be the monkey that holds these people up to Him. I feel like I did nothing to deserve such an honor yet He trust me with it.
Dear Jesus, thank you for this tool you have given me. Thank you for sharpening it with each fast. Thank you for letting the Holy Spirit take over because I know this would be to much for me to bare with out you. I may not see each person grow in faith and build there relationship with you like I got to see Olivia do ,but  I don't need to . I know you will, and I'm thankful for you and I'm thankful you put them in my life . Because of each other we grow closer to you. Amen. I hope this encourages someone to fast for another. I hope this encourage someone to let yourself love another as Gods child. If God came to you and said ,this person is my new child ,pray for them , wouldn't you?  He does, we just have listen. If Hunter comes home from school and says his teacher is mean to him, I fast for her. If someone is not showing compassion , they are starving spiritually, I know to fast. When I see another mom at the kids school showing little compassion if any ,compassion , I fast.where these is a lack of compassion there is a need for God. Matt 4:4 Man shall not live by bread alone but by every word that comes from God. Gal.6:2 Bare one another's burdons and fulfill the Law of Jesus.Phil 3:16   Yes, sometimes I feel like its to much to bare , always seeing a lack of compassion , its feels like my family is a magnet for negative , mean people, but when I feel like that, I remind myself of what Christ had to bare for me. That helps humble me, then I'm right where He wants me ready to  do what He taught us to do by example. What He made a commandment. Love another.Matt 12 .28-31 Law of Jesus . 1.Love God the most. 2.Love one another.
Dear Jesus , keep me humble and keep me strong as I honor your Law. Amen.

Fasting is like miracle grow for your spirit.

I remember the first time a friend invited me to fast . It was  to be on a Wednesday from 6-6 and  I was drawn to it . The next morning was Tues and I spent the day studying everything I could find about fasting, and still with many questions in my head  Wednesday morning came and I fasted. I had no idea what I was doing and I told this to God as I began my morning. I got out a sheet of paper and started to make a list. On my list I wrote names of all the people I loved. I laid my hand over the paper and told God these are the  names I fast for today. Though out  that day every time I got hungry I would sit and pray for the names on my list. First name was my husband then my kids, family , church etc. With every name, I would tell God thank you for so and so and began to worship. I would see a face to match the name come from my memory, and then a need ,to match the face and I would pray for that need of theirs. The day flew by and  it was dinner time and just before 6. As I sat down to to say my final prayer ,I felt a power shift in my heart and I cried out ......
Let my people go ......I found myself thinking about Moses and thinking, this is how he felt. I began to cry, and asked God to let these people go,and always be  free to know you without limit. Let them worship you .Make a way just like you parted the sea for each spirit to  go through. That evening before bed I was saying my prayers and thanked God for our day together.
That next day my cup was overflowing . My spirit receives faster than my mind , so for days my mind , now more clear, had to play catch up .I felt like someone shot my own personal drug of choice straight into my veins and I was instantly addicted. Up till that day my spirit was starving and now it had a taste of the food it needed to be alert, awake, healthy, and to grow, like miracle grow for my spirit. God was closer than ever before to me , and as I did my daily studies , what God wanted me to know was now  magnified to me.  My mind grew sharper and more clear with each fast and my fast list changed each time  . My second fast , I wrote name on the paper my spirit was sensitive to . And my spirit became more and more sensitive , I wrote names on the list of people that were mean to me or my kids. The list to follow that was a list of children my kids knew, I looked forward to fasting and my changing lists.
Not so long ago I felt another change and one name would come to me at a time. I never knew who God would bring to my mind to fast for each week . One week I fasted for an atheist that attacked my blog. Who ever God made my spirit sensitive to that's who I fasted for and it began to be very clear to me why I was called to fast . God always allowed me to be aquainted with or even know who I fast for ,and the more God allowed me to know  about them ,there need was magnified to me.( Example). I  got to know a parent of a child my son goes to school with. The more I would run into her and talk with her the more my spirit would listen and hear a need. Then when God told me to fast for her I would see  a strong hold that she was captive in. I also would see her strengths very clear and see that, she has been using them to please man not God, and  that will  bring fear, disappointment,  hurt, and anger. I knew exactly how to pray for her and I was committed. This woman was angry to begin with, and grew more mean to me ,with no reason except that the world sees believers as a threat. The more uncomfortable around her I would feel ,  I continued to fast for her  over a few weeks. God says pray for those who come against you. I did but when she continued to stand out to me . I wanted muscle behind that prayer so I fasted , and fasted and fasted for this person. The more I fasted for her I would starve my own feeling to death. I starved the hurt she  caused me , I starved to need to avoid her, I starved the fear of confrontation our of myself . This went one until my feeling were no longer important and her needs were more important .
I felt another change growing rapidly. It was like my spirit was playing catch up from all years I missed  because I was stuck in my own strongholds and with every strong hold God showed me and conquered he gave back time with Him I missed.
I started to notice my gift of discernment  was on fire. I could walk in a room and tell you within minutes whoever God would show me truth in ,if they were in desperate need of God. I could see it in the facials , I could hear it seconds after they opened their mouth, sadly I could see it and hear it in there children. Discernment is a gift God give for us to see right from wrong ,but it like fasting, has a power of its own, and the limits to these gifts  when used with the tools like fasting, for Gods will ,with God there is no limit. . The more obedient we are the more they grow. When I started to use discernment with fasting , discernment was not for me to see right from wrong with judgement, but with a need for intersession.
Then I knew God wanted me to fast for those who don't know Him yet and desperately needed Him. Pray for those who come against you. With all the fasting I had gained confidence in God .I began to feel the freedom that is in Jesus. With this freedom I have come to find joy like no other I have know. The joy is in my pride for God, my confidence in Him,  the self-control fasting had helped me gain, its in the accepting that I am not in control and I am dependent on God. Not just my needs now ,but others as well. I still fast every Wednesday and for what or whom depends on God . I find my self now fasting an extra day for every aspect of my life I want God to intervene in before they become strongholds.
(Example), my job,  marriage , church etc. God made every aspect of my life, I want to Him to be in total control  them, I want every cell of my body to be so dependent on Him that my first thought is always Him.
When I found freedom in Jesus, I  saw a positive in every negative. Others took notice, they see  I am  a positive person.
When you see positive things,  you make positive choices . Then people see  happiness ,excitement and energy. This is alluring to others, its like moths to a flame . They want to know if its real, and if they can get it.God cant put negative people out there to draw people to Him. God knows the benefits of overcome a stronghold with Him. When you go through something with Him its hard,  you really have an understanding ,and overwhelming compassion that grows in you that is necessary to help someone , more necessary than any advice you can give.
 Fasting brought me a clear mind, self control and order. Jesus said your thoughts are an index of your mind. What you think, you say in your speech, action etc. That's why fasting is important , it brings clarity.
I have been asked a  lot "What is my purpose here on earth?"
 My only purpose is to be a living sacrifice for God. To be an example of the love that is in me . The compassion I now have because God showed me. This was ,for some reason hard to except for me ,but it turns out it was not just one or the biggest reliefs I have come to know ,but  it really is the only thing I want to do. I want to study and learn and spend my life maturing in faith so I can some day hear those magical words,"Well done good and faithful servant."
What I want most ,is to encourage other to use the tools needed to build their own relationship with God, and come to know for them self the freedom of Jesus . I want to shepherd others in the right direction by motivating love so they will hear those magic words first.
Dear Jesus. Thank you for teaching us by example what they told are and how to use them to build and build our unbreakable relationship with you. Please Jesus fan this fire in me and let it grow so I can be a example of the love you showed for me. Amen

I wont become a pillar of salt......

Genesis 19 talks about the destruction of Sodom and Gomorrah.   Abraham's nephew Lot, his wife and daughters  fled the burning cities with one rule  to follow.......
Get out quickly and don't look back.
Imagine for a moment that God told you to take your spouse and children and leave the area quickly and don't look back.Its hard to imagine huh.
Imagine this then, how many times have you done something because its the right thing to do but its not something you want to do?
Have you ever been told by a doctor you need to loose weight or quit smoking and you go home and try to do it because you have to to get healthy but really in your heart you love eating doughnuts in the evening while watching t.v. If you don't really want to loose weight ,what eventually happens? God knows when you really want something and when you really don''t. When you really want something bad, you ask God for help.When you don't ,your unhappy and you start to miss your old ways.
In Genesis Lots wife was unhappy ,we are all unhappy when we are not in line with Gods will.The same place that made her so unhappy was the same place she wanted more than God. Probably because she could see ,hear,feel, taste etc what was not good for her and she couldn't see God or the place He had prepared for her.
We all have strongholds on our life, I can tell you how many God has helped me overcome and placed behind me and I don't look back. Because each one was hard , I mean they are called strongholds for a reason.They are stronghold on your life. With each one I could not see imagine a life without them, I couldn't see what God had planned for my life without them, but  unlike Lots wife, I wanted the freedom .
We all have strongholds in our life that can either bring freedom or destruction, I just thought I would share how I came to know the freedom in Jesus Christ.

While sitting in my car waiting for Olivia to get out of practice, I asked God to clean me.I told him I wanted Him to clean house with me and start with the skeletons in my closet.I asked Him to magnify to me what I needed to let go of to grow closer to Him.
I love God so much,I wanted to be clean and pure for Him.At that time I didn't care about what I would have to let go of I just wanted to please Him.From that day God revealed one thing at a time to me. Some stronghold took a lot longer for me to let go of than others, and with each one I found a part of me didn't want to let go, a part of me looked back and loved what I had to let go. But remember what I said before, if you really want something God knows because you ask Him for help.That makes all the difference. God knew with each stronghold I wanted Him more, so during my weakness I relied fully on His strength.Turns out, that's exactly what he wanted.
When you ask God for help , you are giving Him what you are dependent on in this world and becoming dependent on Him ,and that is freedom.Being 100%dependent on God is freedom from a world of stronghold.
Lots wife remained in the stronghold because she didn't know God for herself, after all how do you even know they are strongholds on your life if You don't go to God and Ask.
Its not hard to ask God to show you what separates you from Him, and it is not hard for Him to show you, remember God said mountains melt like wax before Him. Your strongholds are the mountains and when you ask God for help they melt like wax.
Looking back on some of my strongholds now I can see what God saw when I handed them to Him, they look small now. Every problem is small before Him.
I cant describe the feeling Gods freedom bring because there are no words here on earth to describe it,but if you can imagine one more thing tonight imagine living without fear.That's the best way I can describe freedom.
Dear Jesus, thank you for showing me my sins,thank you for forgiving me of my sins, thank you for overcoming sin in me. Please magnify any mountains between us so I can bring them to you and watch them melt like wax before you.Thank you Jesus because of you I do not have to look back and become a pillar of salt, I can look forward to freedom.Amen

Discernment is for Intercession not judgement.

Forgive them father they know not what they do.
Jesus showed us how to deal with people that come against us. Jesus showed us  as He hung on a cross and sweat blood in His obedience. He showed us! It was so important for us to understand , that as He hung there dying, He taught us this lesson.
We are given the gift of discernment so we can see right from wrong . Not only so we choose the right road but so we can see other taking the wrong road. If we judge them we sin, if we convict them we sin. If we join them we sin, if we ignore them we sin.
There is only one way we cannot sin. That's praying for them. I know how hard it is to forgive someone that hurt you ,but we have to so WE don't form a grudge and it grow into a stronghold that becomes a poison that spreads from you to the ones we love the most. A lot of us that have Jesus in our forgive. But it's for Us.
We don't have to stop there ,there is more we can do. Jesus did more for us. God forgives us because Jesus asked Him to. We are called to intercede on behalf of each other. We not only forgive, but we should ask God to forgive them! We pray for those who can't  do it for themself. I know first hand how hard it is to forgive someone that is mean to me but I can because loving Jesus the most makes this easier ,but praying for someone who in your eyes is wrong is what we are called to do. This is the whole reason God blesses believers with discernment. Discernment is a gift! A powerful one we can use it to its fullest by interceding for others. When someone is really off track or on the attack and it obvious they need God , fast for them. This is taking interceding to another level.
There are a lot of people that intercede in prayer for me. My family my church family my kids . I am testifying that there prayers were answered because they loved me . I never would be as close to God as I am without all the people God put in my life that pray for me. We are called to strengthen each other. Iron sharpens iron.
Thank God for letting you see right and wrong . Pray someone else does. Love them enough that you want them to see right and wrong.
You ever hear the saying , " your only as strong as your weakest link?" It's true. If you want to grow closer to God and be a stronger witness for Him. Take  who He lets you see in truth and be obedient . Do what Jesus did , interceded by asking God to forgive them of their sin. We are not responsible for others salvation but we are for our own.
Dear Jesus, thank you for being an example for me to follow.Thank you for the lesson you taught as you hung on the cross.The lesson of loving others . Please let the gift of discernment grow in me each time I am obedient when you show me the truth. Thank you for letting me see the truth so I can do as you did.Forgive them who have lost their way ,forgive them who come against, forgive those who can see the truth yet, use me holy spirit to be an example of Jesus. Amen

What's meant distract you can make you stronger

Have you ever heard the saying " what doesn't kill you makes you stronger ?" There is much truth behind that. Why does God allow us to have disappointments , grief, broken hearts , fear etc. ? God allows the devil to test us with these. What happens when we have disappointments ? We learn patients. What happens when we deal with grief from a loss? We learn how time is a gift. What happens when we experience a broken heart? We lean how powerful love really is. What happens when we overcome fear? We gain confidence.
These things that we know and teach out children are part of life, are meant to be more than just to teach us there is sorrow in the world. They are meant to be more than just so we know this isn't heaven so don't expect it to be.
These are actually ways to grow closer to God hear on earth. These are meant to be ways to make us dependent on Him.
What happens when you exercise for years? You grow strong and healthy.
These are ways we can exercise our faith. God wants use to grow strong and healthy.
If we go to Him with each  disappointment and give it to Him , he will show you that disappointments are nothing more than the devil trying to distract you from the appointment He made for our life. If we go to Him with every heartbreak we have , He will show you how far you have come in learning the power of love and you being to understand and respect His love for us more with everyone. He teaches us how much you can love another more than yourself. What happens when we go to God with grief? He shows you His pure agape love. We learn  to become dependents of Him. What happens when we go to Him with our fear? He will show you flashes of your life and reminds you when He has been there and concurred them through you.
Satan hopes you will take these as bait and they will build one on top another and grow into strongholds.
These are meant to be strengthening tools . If we go to God with each one boldly to the throne with HOPE. Hope that He has a plan to mature us in faith by becoming more dependent on Him. He shows you how strong your becoming by exercising your faith.
Jeremiah 29:11  "For I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. "
Everything that happens in our life was what He planned every heart break , every fear etc. with every plan is a chance for us to prosper and have hope in Him.
Dear God , forgive me for every time I took the bait and was catch up in the flesh. Thank you for the hope you give me now and the future plans to prosper in our relationship . I. Love you more with every day. Amen!!!!

Teach your children to how to be a tattle tail.

All through school I tried to people please my way through.I did make it through ,but then it all caught up with me.This gets harder as an adult.You cannot people please your way through life .You must learn to make waves with a perfect blend of truth and grace or waves will come anyway you'll feel like your drowning.

God says do not hinder the children.This means in any way.We as parents must accept trial will come for our children and see them as lessons that God needs them to learn.This way as they grow they mature in faith too.God has carefully planned every second of their life and every trial they need to face in order to learn and lead them to the calling He has for them.

I tried so hard to please people growing up because i thought this way they will see Jesus in me.I was never really taught how to deal with difficult people so my natural way was act like it didn't bother me and go home and cry to my mom.My mom did what I see most parents do now and try to solve the problem for me . This is handicapping our children from a lesson they eventually must learn.So every time a mean child crossed my path I did the same thing acted like it didn't bother me and forgave them . The truth was it did bother me and they didn't see Jesus in me they saw that their behavior toward me was OK .What they saw in me was weak.I showed grace but grace alone is not how we should teach our children to deal with difficult people.If all we show is grace we either become a doormat or over time grow cold and show less and less grace until we are bitter.

As a young adult this is exactly what happened.I realized I wasn't in high school anymore and I was going to use my voice.I got a taste of speaking the truth to others that were mean .I realized I could let them know I didn't like how they were treating me, and the relief of getting it out and off my chest was addictive.I would say things like,"well, you asked me what I think." or "well,its the truth isn't it."I enjoyed seeing thing how they were and speaking the truth.As you know practice makes perfect. It did, I became very good at calling it like I see it .It grew into hiding meanness in the truth.The thing is when you say the truth without grace, only meanness is heard not the truth.The truth is ,there is a time and place for both and both must be used together.When I showed grace I was trying to please man for God instead of Pleasing God for man.When I spoke truth,I was convicting others.Just because I saw the truth didn't mean they were ready to hear it and they wont hear it without grace.

Jesus was not a doormat nor mean, he used the perfect blend of truth and grace to equal healing.When he dealt with difficult people he never used one more than the other.He was obedient to God by speaking the truth with grace.Did you ever hear the saying ,"Its not what you said it is how you said it" 

Daniel was a shepherd for sheep as a boy , you don't become a shepherd of men for God by picking up the sheep when they stray off and putting them back where you want them.You must lead the sheep in the right direction letting them get there themselves.

We have to learn and teach our children, sheep get lost ,when they are lost they are scared,out of fear they do wrong things ,but we can lead them to finding the truth on there own by motivating them . When people are mean to us we naturally are discouraged if we are mean in return we discourage .If we ignore the lost sheep they stay lost.

I was at a pep assembly the other day my I was sharing with a cheer mom that my daughter still fighting a cold after a week of antibiotics. Ill refer to this mom as a lost sheep.Anyway a lost sheep interrupted and crudely said "you should keep her home instead of infecting everyone else"I know this lost sheep is a negative person and very lost. I could have said" mind your own business",or I could have said what I was thinking "Its called a common cold for a reason, its common and there is no cure, and its a public school not a bubble so why get mad about something that will happen allot?"But I knew the cold was not all that was bugging her and the cold was not what led her to be rued.I said well thank you for your input and since have ignored her.So I wouldn't say i led the sheep to the truth ,by ignoring her  I am actually discouraging her and leaving her lost.We are not called to be quiet to be people pleasers . WE are called to see the truth and show truth with grace.So I'm still praying about this lost sheep and the opportunity and word to say .

Because of Jesus perfect example of holding on to truth and grace for dear life literally, we see that we are making it harder than we need to . We do not have to be a doormat for people to see Jesus in us, We do not have to demand people see the truth, when we are motivating others that is showing grace leading them to find the truth is walking in truth.I don't know the perfect thing to say to all negative difficult people at the very moment needed but, I don't have to because God says put Him first so all i have to do is pray then God says if need to question someone,do it in private .So I just have to wait for God to present the timing then His truth words will flow out

This is how we should teach our children to deal with difficult people because if not we are hindering there spiritual growth.WE all want more for our children the we had we all want an easier life for them .We all want them to make the most of their life so teach them obedience.

 My husband Kelly often asks me why does it bother you so much when people are rued,or mean to you? You know it doesn't really have anything to do with you right?Well,the answer is because I see them as lost sheep, and no good shepherd wants to his sheep.

Usually God allows us to get to know the person before they turn on us . This is so we can see the truth why they really are lost.If you ask a shepherd about his sheep , he will tell you them all by name , and all their different traits, and how he has to lead each one. God allows difficult people to pass through our life each one is a lost sheep and He trusted them with you.I'm starting to see them more as children that have never been taught how to deal with difficult people and at some point was sucked in.I think we should treat them with kid gloves. Isn't that what a shepherd does,a teacher does, a leader does, isn't that what Jesus taught us?We don't have to have all the right answers at just the right time we should remember we are sons and daughters of God we can take time and talk to our father first and ask what to do.We don't have all the answers but our father does.That brings me back to the beginning isn't that what as a child we are taught to do ?Run and tell an adult or parent.Run to the throne not the phone be a tattle tail God loves a tattle tail.

Im going on a diet to loose expectations!!!!!!!

Cinderella was not only my favorite storybook as a child but she became my role model,my hero.Like many little girls I dreamed I would grow up meet prince charming ,get a beautiful dress,and live like a princess in a castle happilly ever after.  Looking back I think I lived Cinderella backwards. I was the princess growing up then I became the housekeeper. So what went wrong?

I think we( mostly woman) set our expectation high. I not only set them high but I set my expectation to fiction. So first of all that's why they went wrong. Second I had expectations. We set ourselves up for dissappoinment every day. We go to college with the expectation of getting our dream job,we have a child and expect we can make their life better than ours was, we buy a house and expect it to be filled with happiness,we get marries expectation our new spouse to magically become perfect from the kiss, we even go to the grocery store expecting that the store will have everything we needed. I cant even tell you how many times I have been disappointed, but I can tell you every time could have been prevented. I bought my daughter a dress for a formal this week and heard myself say to my daughter,"This will be a perfect night."I stopped myself  and said well at least you'll look perfect, I stopped myself again and said the dress is beautiful. I walked around the house for days thinking what am I doing?Im not only setting my expectations high but Im setting Olivias high as well.This has to stop!

For some reason every anniversary since I have been married has been a disaster. So after last year I decided not to even celebrate it anymore. I even forgot it this year. Well, a month after our anniversary we went to a football game to watch my daughter cheer . It was my turn to sell programs for cheer moms so Kelly and I brought chairs sat down at the gate and sold programs till halftime .When I was done I was hungry and ran down the street to get Chinese food for Kelly and I.  We sat in our chairs at the gate under the score board of the football game and ate dinner together. I looked over at  him and said Happy Anniversary.  I had no plan no expectations that day and it turned out to be the best anniversary date ever. That got me thinking , what should if anything should I expect?
Should I expect Kelly care about me rambling on about what happened at a cheer mom meeting?Should I expect Kelly to take care of me if I'm sick? Should I expect to get a close parking spot at the grocery store? Should I expect if I buy Olivia a dress that the dance will be fun? Should I expect my car to run today?Should I expect because i'm happy and polite  everyone else should be? The answer is No to all.  God never said because I created life and earth you can expect it all to be perfect.
Proverbs 10:28 says "The hope of the rightous brings joy,but the expectations of the wicked will parish.' I think I have been drastically confusing hope with expect.
Hope means Look  forward to with confidence or expectation.
Expectation means The (belief) about what might happen in the future?Expect is belief that something might happen because you did something. We cant beieve in any thing but God. 
God says hope not expect.Why?  Have you ever heard the saying expect the worst hope for the best?Isn't that what God said too? "Hope of the rightious brings joy, but expectations of the wicked will parish."Hope means what (you would like) to happen.  Expect means (what you think ) will happen. Don't you think that is what Job is all about? How strong is our faith unless tested? If we are God fearing people we cannot expect life will be perfect. Job was tested and did not expected one test to follow another and another etc.Jobs hope remained in God.  When we expect its like we demand that is what God should do. Job surrendered himself fully to God body MIND and soul.  Expecting is a frame of mind. We can put all our hope in God to fulfill his promises to us all of our days here on earth but we cant expect it. We may struggle all our life and hope God will make it right but It may not be made right till we are in heaven. If anyone had the right to expect from God it was His son and Jesus never expected God to save Him He accepted Gods will. What did Jesus do when He was hopeless? He fasted. He starved the expectations of what should be out and put all hope in God, through fasting He became hopeful. He starved the flesh of all expectations and power. Satan asked Jesus all kinds of questions,Satan wanted Jesus to expect God to save Him because He is the son of God. Satan expected .Satan expected Jesus to prove Gods existence and since Satan expected he failed.
Romans 5:3-5 But the hope that is seen is no hope at all. Who hopes for what they already have?
When we expect we want to see .Who are we to expect God to show us anything? If we have to see to believe we have little faith.What about Thomas?John 20:29 Jesus says himself to Thomas,"Because you have seen me you have believed, blessed are those who believe and have not seen."When we have expectations we basically say Jesus let me see the holes in your hands.
~If we replaced expect with hope we get accept~. What I would give to go back in time and accept and not expect. I cant but I can stop the nonsense and ask God for a clear mind in raising Hunter and Olivia to Hope and not expect. I can ask Kelly to forgive me for all I expected as a new bride and share my hopes for the future . If we stop expecting we can eliminate offence , grudges, quick to anger,etc. Think about this We cannot expect to loose weight unless we accept we are over weight. When we go on a diet we hope we loose weight but we don't go on a diet expecting to loose it all in a month or what happens ?We fail. Recently I started fasting every wednesday.I accept there is a problem that i cannot fix. I am confident that God is in control I starve the problem of all its power and surrender it in hope to Gods will. We should not have expectations because they are beliefs . We should only have hopes in Gods will and the hope helps us accept His will. To put it all simply nonbelievers have expectations. The believe if they study for a test they should get an (A). Believer hope if they study for a test they will pass. Grade doesnt matter.

Serve others with LOVE

• Mark  10:45 
• "For even the Son of Man came not to be served but to serve, and to give his life as a ransom for many."
• I asked God  to teach me to serve others as he serves me. He showed me that every job is a service to another person.Think about that every job serves another person.You serve many people every day.I am just a stay at home mom right now but even I serve other.I serve my husband and children by meeting their needs, I serve the school by volunteering , I serve the church how ever needed, I serve by sharing blogs with others. etc.Even I serve others and I don't hold a job.
• We don't get a choice if we want to serve or not.We are born to serve.We do get a choice of who we serve.Daniel in the bible was forced to work in captivity by King Nebuchadnezzar.He was forced to serve a King for 70 years.When you study Daniel you learn that no matter where you are , what you have to do ,who you marry, who your boss is, who your grandparents were, what faith your raised in, it does not matter because you can still serve God.We get to choose if we want to serve God or Man.
• I am a cheer mom, I could choose to always watch out for my daughter, encourage her who to hang out with, put her in extra tumbling classes for her to excel above other, volunteer for every need the cheer moms need for my daughter. Do you all get my point? I could take being in a cheer mom group and using it to serve my daughters needs or my needs , I could use it to serve man. Or I could use it to serve God. I do , I see being a cheer mom as simply this..... Its my daughters sport! Anything they ask Me to ,I do the best I can to help them.I dont need thank you or achknowledgment.I treat it as I do helping my husband and kids at home. The bathroom needs cleaned,I can do it, its done and noone needs to stop and say Oh My Angie!!!! The bathroom looks great.I serve others by helping with the odd jobs that need done but I serve God in this group by Praying for all the girls by name each night,by teaching Olivia too, By seeing a kid is sick and sending get well wishes, by seeing a child loose a grandparent and sending Olivia to give her a card and candy.In what could easily turn into  a man serviving self serving group God showed me it didnt have to. 
• Im going to give a more personal example that some can relate to. I was married into a family that is lets just say not practicing a faith.They know of God and Jesus but........ Anyway I was raised in church and choose to be babtized before I was married as an adult .God has always been the center of me.I as most new brides tried to embrass the new family that looked so leave it to Beaver.We moved next door , vacationed together,talked about everything, I tried to be the perfect  wife and daughter in law. I failed!!! I was often reminded Im not perfect. No matter how hard i tried to gain their attention and affermation, and respect, I just didnt get it. Boy I wanted it , I tried for about  10 years , then I stood in my kitchen feeling exactly how you end up feeling when you seek these things  from the world and others ,empty ,alone,and exhausted.I asked God to forgive me and lets start again.I asked Him why Did you put me in this family/Why a family of self servers?My answer surprized me, Why Not?
• If I would have married into a family of very devout believers would that be any different?Wow,that's all could think,Wow.The answer was nope.First of all who am I to think I deserve better than what God gave me?Second, why cant I be happy serving God ? Just God?Third why am I not happy?I was seeking the world first, I was seeking approval from others,etc. I was no better than them. I was them,I actually fit more into the family than I was willing to except.That day changed my life!!!!! 
• The first thing that came out of my mouth was forgive Them Lord as you forgive me.They do not know you yet. Please forgive them for what they are doing.That second God let the holy spirit turn toward Him and lead my steps.That second I began to serve God where I was the way I should . Ill never forget the feeling I felt.I felt the peace that surpasses all understanding.I felt peace where 2 seconds earlier I felt despair , and pain in my heart. In 1 second God showed me how to serve Him by loving others enough to bring them to Him where I was.After that day, I got a knock at my door and my soon to be FIRST spiritual friend invited my to her church. I went and am still there. I am still married still live next door to my in laws nothing changed but who I serve where I am.
• 1 Samuel 2 :26 And the boy Samuel continued to grow in stature and gain favor with the Lord and with people.
• Put God first, as Daniel and Samuel did and work on growing to know Him grow in faith, try to please Him,first and you will( gain)gain increase in favor of God first, if you are pleased Him no matter what no matter where people are pleased.Daniel served God for 70 years in the enemies hands we can serve God by putting Him first and being an example to others whats in your heart.Jesus!!!
• If you are at a job like my brother working for a tyrrant, if you are in a marriage or family , if you are a weight watchers club, it does'nt matter . If your not happy like I was ask your self a tuff question , who are you serving? Who are you seeking love, acceptence, affirmations, gifts, achknowledgment , respect from? The world , the enemy  does not have any of these to give.Jesus did not come here to be served, not be served love, acceptance, not respect ,not gifts,He served others with what He hand in His heart.Love !!!!!God is LOVE.Jesus ransomed His life so we could too.We can serve like He did. We can serve love.
• Today i was at Kroger getting groceries the young man bagging my groceries helped me to my car and loaded my car. I had 2$ in my purse cash, I could have tipped him as I have done before but he said he had to push buggies and forgot his gloves. I took the 2$ and went to another store and bought him gloves. I showed what was in my heart (love) to another person. I served him what was needed. I could not have done that or know that if Jesus would'nt have served me.God made sure we all could serve every day but how we use the gift of service He gave us is up to us.Thank you God for your gift to us all of service, help us serve love.Amen

Turn from worry

• Have you ever been worried about something ?Why?Worry means allow ones  mind to dwell on difficulty or troubles. I remember when my daughter was being bullied at school . We together prayed and prayed every night. The bullying went on for 2 years total. There were days when she was at school that honestly I could do nothing but pray. I was so worried I was paralized in fear. As with any lesson God  teaches me I have to learn what to do in order to find peace.I have to learn exactly step by step what I'm doing wrong and make the correction to line up my life with His word.I am so thankful God loves me so much that He believes I'm worth teaching and has the patients to do so. can honestly say today Olivia and I are free and now have peace.How did I go from paralized in fear to peace?Like I said it was a 2 year journey and it began when I placed my Issac on the alter.After a year of worry and fear i remember going for a run, I needed to run away from this problem so bad i literally put on my sneakers and ran. While I was running I remember saying God I'm done. I'm done trying I cant fix this. I told God I had Olivia babtized at 12 and she is yours. I told God I placed my Issac on the alter and took her back off when things Got hard. You are the alpha and omega . I'm not.I am so sorry please forgive me.I wasted so much time worrying and day by day the worry grew to the point I was paralized in fear.No more I trust you Lord let your will be done in me. The thing is God gave Olivia to me.She was always His. my job as a parent is to raise to know Him. I have to teach her the tools she needs to build her own relationship with God  so there is another generation to serve Him. That's it.I stated studying Jesus,from the time Mary was pregnant she knew this was a gift from God. She knew God was in control and the  holy  spirit will help her raise Him. There is no story about Mary successfully intervening and saving Jesus from life on earth. That's because we are mere human and we cannot. What did she do?She trusted God. I'm not saying she didn't cry or pray or hurt.She was human she did but she cast her cares to God. Have you ever watched something terrible and have to turn your head know it will be over soon. Worry means  allow ones mind to dwell on difficulty. God says surrender you mind to Him. What I was going threw with Olivia of corse did not compare to what Mary went threw but can you surrender your mind to God by looking away from the difficulty and know it will be over soon. I believe that's what Mary had to do each time Jesus was whipped and beaten because as a mother I cant fathem how else you could get through that.I believe if we cast our cares to God  trust Him by looking away do not let you mind dwell on the difficulty God brings peace in place of worry. This is were the peace that surpasses all understanding comes in. I say its peace that does not make sense in the situation.How do we do this?What I learned was I cast my cares my cares. Cares come first if we allow it to grow it becomes worry and worry is fear of whats to come. So cast your cares right away then I always pray God I have a right to a clear mind to serve you.I surrender my mind to you.I worship you .This is my care I bring to you do not allow it to grow in my mind.Matt 6:34 says "Do not worry about tomorrow tomorrow will worry about  itself.Each day has enough trouble of its own." Each day has enough trouble of its own. Doesn't say there is no trouble tomorrow. It says each day has trouble of its own. when we worry we let it consume us and grow into fear. We do not have to fear about whats to come if we believe in Jesus because He is to come.Each day has trouble of its own. Didn't Jesus have new troubles as well every day?This is earth not heaven we will have troubles but we do not by the power of Jesus Have to let our minds dwell on difficulties. Jesus suffering was for us. He taught be showing us to Trust God no matter what the price even after death there is life with God.What I learned was I  place my Issac on the alter and no matter what i leave her there because she is safe. Issac didn't die on the alter he lived.He not only lived but thrived.I believe like Mary Abraham before he went to sacrifice Issac he looked away in order to be obedient. I think we need to know looking away is not allowing you mind to dwell on the difficulty but focus on being obedient to God. That day I went for a run I placed Olivia on the alter and didn't take her off. I'm not saying that's the end because right after that Olivia was physically theretened God allows us to continue to be tested to make sure we surrender the strong hold. But hold fast because this is worth it. After that I did look away, I didn't dwell on the difficulty . You cant change a difficult situation but God can change your outlook on it. I had a feeling to put Olivia in self defense classes. Not to fight or become the bully but to see the enemy coming and have confidence to defuse the situation. And that is exactly what happened. Olivia became confident that even if it came to a fight she would be O.K. and not just that but could just by her stance and tone change the situation. Not just Olivia but me as well,I no longer have to worry at allllllll. Now its been 5 months and the tables have turned to Olivia's favor. Through Jesus We  can have pure peace that's surpasses all understanding and surpasses worry.We just have to look away from the worry and cast our cares to God.

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Physical faith

We take the first step. Give your life to Christ . But there is always a need for more. There are levels to our relationship with God. Just like any relationship sometimes we have to physically show our love. I was talking with my husband today, I told him you tell me you love me everyday , but how do I feel the love? I explained to him he says it and I am trusting that he does. But when you say the words I do not feel it. I hear it then my memory searches for the times you showed me physically . Then I remember what love feels like and it was from you. But the love was first  physically felt . When my husband and I met we had to walk to each other, we had to talk, he went out of his way to get my attention. He sacrificed his time , his money , sleep, he thought of me first I was always on his mind. What could he do ,when could he see me , we physically had to spend time together to get to know each other. I wanted to buy him candy or a card and write something in it. So he knew I was thinking of him. God sent His son , Jesus was physically here. Jesus physically suffered died on a cross for us. God physically showed His love for us. We can physically show Him love too. Testify, fast, serve, babtized, tithes, worship, pray, . These are things that we can physically do to go out of our way to show God we love Him. Just like with my husband , when he called me, brought me flowers etc. he showed me he cared. He wanted my attention . He wanted our relationship to move forward together, to grow. We should never stop wooing God, we don't have to, we grow closer by telling and physically showing Him. He led by example, He gave us life, he physically heals us. To give is a physical action. He gives us everything. It's better to give than receive. Who knows that better than God? When I started physically expressing my faith my faith grew quickly, there is always a need for more until we r with Him, but as long as were are waiting we can grow closer and closer and closer.being obiedent to all He says is the best way to physically show Him your love.

Fasting for friends

What i love about my christian community friends is that they fill the need in my heart i have been longing for. I am free to share my love lesson from God . I can jump start another believer and the jump start me. This is true fellowship. I wish we all could sit around a table at a church together and study, pray , praise, worship together and we will one day but until then i truely enjoy my daily revival with you all. Fasting for friends was inspired by another community member im proud to call my friend. The holy spirit is awake and working through her. Today is wed . Every wed. From 6am to 6 pm i fast. I wake up thank God for however my day will go and ask him let the spirit take over me and do its work today. I get out a sheet of paper and a pen and i make a list. I write all the names that God brings to my mind even names from  my google community. I write all names of people that have come against  us hurt me or my family that week. They come against because they need prayer. I write my pastor , church members , kids, there friends, husband, his coworkers, teachers , session members, missionaries. Yes my list is long and longer every week. I circle the names that my spirit is sensitive too. The pastor,,the ones that hurt me, a new friend, and old one, someone that i havent seen in church. Then i lay my hand on the paper and pray over each one. I tell God these people all need feed by you. I fast for them today. You brought them in my life for a time , today i give them back. Then i go on with my day. When i get hungry i pray for all the souls on my list over again. Today i encourage you to join me in this beautiful gift of fasting God gave us. Love your loved ones in a most high way. Fast for your friends.

Do you know how to jump start another? Testimony!

Have you ever had a conversation with someone and found yourself saying," yeah, i know what you mean that happened to me then you begin to tell about you." God made our brains with the ability to identify , understand, and communicate testimonies. Not just that but  when someone tells you somthing have you ever felt like jumping in the conversation? Like you cant wait to share your experience? God made our soul with a need to communicate testimonies. When you get to engage in a conversation and share your experience dont you feel satisified ? He made our bodies our  mouth , mind, soul all to work together to testify our life experience to benifit another in conversation. We all testify every day in coversations but it can go two ways . Lift others up or tear them down.
We all have social circles. At church, your kids schools, work, the communities on line. In every circle there are positive and negative people. There are people im more likey to call a friend that lift me up and encourage me in our talks, then the ones i try to avoid that find a negative in every situation i present. Our testimony, our experiences, our conversations can encourage, be positive, be energizing and refereshing to others. Testimonies are meant to ignight, empower, energize, feed others. Kinda like putting a new batterie in a remote control, that was dead. Or a car that needs a jump. Some cars take a jump easy some need to go in the shop.
Have you ever been in a social circle and felt uncomfertable around a negative person like a constant negative person? Someone that every testimony every conversation is a bummer. God allows us believers to feel this so we judge accordingly. Can this person use a jump? A positive word of encouragement, a testimony of how it was positive for you, do they need a responce ? Or do they need to go in the shop? Do they need a prayer? So first , what kind of testimony do you want to give? Positive or negative. Second know your audience. Do they need a positive testimony a jump or do they need to go in the shop? A prayer in your own time? Third , feed them accordingly. We r nit the shop. We can not fix what is broke. Knowing that will help you not to try and not get offended and take it personal. If you go to jump someones car and it doesnt work :( you say well i tried sorry and you hope they get it all sorted out. While there waiting for a tow you can wait with them , you can even share a time when you needed a tow. But , thats it . Just because there car broke doesnt mean yours has. You do not need to take on there problems and make them your own. How do we not get dragged down by negative people? Know your not the machanic.
I have been thrown into a social circle where God wants to teach me how to stay positive and do my job. Give jump starts. But first i had a long journey with Him of learning what a testimony is how powerful it is and how to use it. Its a weapon all of its own.
In James 3 it talkes about untamable tongue. 3:1-2 says let not many if you become teachers , knowing that we shall receive stricter judgement. For we all stumble in many things. Good teachers know how to jump start a student. Good teachers know every child is teachable. Good teachers know hiw to encourage a student with there words. Good teachers give good positive testimonies. Great teachers know all children are teachable. Sometime they have to refer the student to a more qualified teacher that will meet their needs. James describes how faith works in every day life . Everday speech and actions should correspond with inward faith. Knowing what testimony means and how to use it can greatly benifit all involved. How can we give a testimony of Jesus?  By following the 10 commandsments by knowing his greatest commandment, love God with all your heart , mind and soul. Love your neighbore as yourself. Till it oozes out of you in testimony of what is in your heart. What is truly in your heart comes out of your mouth. Be a living testimony of who is in you.

Testimonies and trials.......

There is an amazing power in testimonies. Testimonies are meant to cause a revival in believers. They are meant to renew and refreshes and energize another believer. Testimonies encourage each other to resist evil and hold fast to Gods word. John had the best testimonies , in revelations 1 it explains it beautifully. John bore witness to the word of God, and to the testimony of Jesus Christ. We are witnesses of Jesus Christ. We must stand and testify to the things He has done for us, to energize the spirit in another. Its contagious let it be. About a year ago i felt the desire to stand up on Sunday morn at church and give a testimony of what Jesus has done for me that week. It never failed every saturday evening I would know exactly what I was supposed to stand and say. At first i really didnt want to do it. I didnt want to stand up and have everyone look at me i was insecure. The devil really preyed on that too. I went to church the whole way there im talking myself out of doing a testimony, by the time it came to joys and concerns i was just were God wanted me humble , weak, of few but powerful words. I would leave church and satan hit me hard. Some of the biggest trials of my life were during the year of testimonies. But week after week sat night i knew what to say. Sun at church when it was time there i was more and more humble week after week because after a testimony satan would attack. For some reason I knew i couldnt stop. Even though satan tested me hard God always Gave me a reason to testify by the end of the week. I told God as long as there are reasons ill testify. Satan tested me harder and harder and the reason to testify were smaller and smaller. But there was still always sometime. Finally about 6-7 months in I had a horrible week. Satan must have been mad because that week my daughter was being bullied at school coming home crying every day, my finances hit rock bottom, my husband asked for a divorse, I was exhausted to the point of thin and sick. Saturday rolled around and I had it. I asked God why , why are you allowing this for me? Have I not stood on Holy ground in your house and testified to every good thing ??? Saturday night I still had no testimony to offer. That night while my family slept, i stood in my kitchen and called out to satan. I was shaking but i stood strong as i could and said. Satan, by the power of Jesus Christ in me you are a bump in the road, MOVE i have a job to do. I am marked by my maker, you will have to take my life to stop me. And you do not get that right. I will still serve my Lord Jesus no matter what you do. I dont know why i dont know how i knew to call him out . All i can say is the holy spirit in me took over and stepped in. I felt peace after that . I felt strong . I went to church the next morning had no testimony but asked permission  to not stand in my seat but come to the front of the church. Honestly i was a mess that day . I had little sleep, my eyes were swollen from weeks of tears and i was in no shape to be giving a testimony. I stood up there and said im not hear to testify for all the good God has done in my life Im hear to tell you all the bad. I named every single thing. Talk about humble. Still to this day that was one of two days I have ever been that humble before God. After i named everything i said im testifing that i still believe. I told them satan is a bump in the road and no matter how bad it got I will still testify that i believe. That day I was attacked by satan in church. Out of respect for my church family Ill never say how but, satan used a person in the church i did not know to attack me at my most weak volnerable time. I was caught off guard to say the least. To satan nothing no place on earth is off limits. After a few dayes of prayer i asked God please help me . Teach me what you are trying to. That week i spent learning all i could about the enemies in the bible and in my alone time with God he was teaching me to know the enemy see him coming. Over the seven months of testimonies and trials God also reminded me He was building my confidence in Him. No matter what God always was there for me and gave me something to find peace in in the end  of the week. No matter what happened in my life and when i could not take any more the holy spirit would take over. By the end of the year God healed everything in my life . I still gave testimonies but my out look changed. When i was tested first i saw it coming so i wasnt caught off guard and full of emotion. When you  are confident and emotionally strong .the testimonies get bigger and the tests get smaller and smalker till  God shows you the mole hill you made out to be a mountain he made look like a grain of sand. I still give my testimonies but now i encourage my kids to as well. And as i said before nothing is off limits to satan not even my children. I seen them tested as well. I keep telling them God gives back what satan takes and there is always and will always be something to testify for. Now i know my testimonies can inspire and encourage others as they did me every week. Now i testify of hiw God has blesses me only for the benifit of other believers. There is power in testimonies for all of us. There is a lessson chance to be obedient chance to mature your faith through them. Looking back it was a crazy year but i love God more. We need to testify for each other. Its important to not hinder our children in any way to orotect them. God will. We must encourage them to testify

10 commandments for every day life....

Exodus 20 God spoke 10 commandment. He commanded these words . Command means to give an authoritative order. To tell, direct, instruct, require.I like  the word require. God requires His people to  live by His rules. I don't know about you but right now I'm so honored to be His . I'll try to meet any requirement needed. I'm honored to be commanded by Him. Today I was talking to God and asked Him how do I survive / thrive at being a sports mom? I have a daughter that's a cheerleader and a son that plays all sports. They are both young so I have a long road ahead. I know there is no way in the WORLD I can do this alone , and I really don't want to. I know if anyone has there child in any extracurricular activities you understand my request to God. How do I not get caught up in the desires of the flesh??????Gal 5:19-21 desires of the flesh include adultery, fornication, uncleanliness, lewdness, idolutry, sorcery, contention, jealousy, outburst of wrath, selfish ambition, dissension, heresies, envy, murder, drunkeness, revelries. These sound familiar? I'm sure I've seen them all played out during a little league ball season. So back to my question in my prayer today, how do I survive being a sports mom? Well, quickly I felt the need to refer to the Ten Commandments. As I restudied the commandments I knew God was telling me if I live by these commandments in all situations of my life I do not have to get caught up in the desires of the flesh. God commands me to live by these requirements in every situation every day no exceptions.
Thou shall not have any Gods before me.....keep my priorities in order. God, family, school, activities. God chose this for my child's life! I need to recognize this is an oppertunity for my child to build a relationship with God through prayer and encourage that. Teach my daughter to pray for her squad and her coach. These children were put in her life for a period of time each one of them. I need to teach my daughter to be an example of daughter of God , and focus on that . Teach my daughter by example to keep her priorities in order.
Thou shall not make for yourself an idol......  Do not put anything or anyone in a place where only
God belongs. Give credit where credit is due. By keeping your priorities in order with God first , you realize the coach , team, parents, kids, field, time etc. is all in Gods control and Being obedient to His commandment , He will cover you , your child, your family in a shield of favor for your child to be an example.
Thou shall not bow down and worship them.....Seeking to please God and God ALONE, being obedient to His commandment is not only freeing but pleasing . What I mean is, knowing you have one judge one person to please to answer to, one person that wants to help you and work with you . If you are pleasing God it is pleasing to others. Therefore you are free from the chains of trying to please others all the time.
Thou shall not use the Lords name in vain........ Don't make Him look bad. Be an example of The way He is raising you. Rebuke the desires of the flesh and being obedient to His commandments keeps vain at bay. If you put pleasing God first in your priorities nothing can be self seeking or vain. god knows our heart seek Him first.
Remember the sabbath by keeping it holy.......Every day is the sabbath . Every day you should put God first, everyday make time for just God. If I am too busy with kids and their activities to pray , spend time with God alone, pray with my kids , help my church. Than I'm more busy than God intended me to be. Therefore I need to go back and check my priorities. Every day the world wants to suck me into the drama , I need to spend everyday with God helping me not to be.
Honor thy father and mother........How did Jesus honor His parents? Seeking God, being obedient to Gods commandments.
You shall not murder....... If you hate you murder a chance to honor God . Hate kills . Hate separates you from God. Seek God first all else is added! Hate subtracts.
You shall not commit adultery ......... When you love God you want to be obedient to His commandments and not dis loyal to Him . I am HIS . I want to fight all desires of flesh with the fruits of the spirit. To be loyal to Him.
Thou shall not steal..... God gives! Satan takes. Give credit where credit is due, everything give God credit. Do not take what is not yours , fame , credit, job, etc. Always
 give because God gives to you.
Thou shall not bare false witness...... Don't lie! God says the truth will set you free. Lying puts you in chains. Let your yes be yes and no be no. Anything in the middle is a lie . When I put a God first He reveals the truth . He lets you see it and therefore act in it.
Thou shall not covet...... Thou shall not want!!!!!I do not want anything more than the life God chooses for me and my kids. Anything I want on Earth cannot compare to what God has for us.
Keeping my priorities in order God first. By letting the Ten Commandments become part of me, enables me to keep His greatest commands. Matthew22 love God with all your heart, mind, soul the most second love your neighbor as yourself. Knowing this allows us to not just survive but thrive at anything and any situation we are in. We do have free will. We have a choice to be obedient to his commandments but the consequences are all in His hands. I want the consequences to my actions to be a result to what He request of me.

Shield of favor

My son Hunter plays baseball. When it comes time for the dad's that coach every year to go in and pick their draft, somehow Hunter gets the shaft. He was one of 2 second graders on an all first grade team. All his friends in his grade were on another second grade team together . At first when Hunter told me I was upset. I knew even asking the people in change of the league would not change anything but I called anyway. I explained these two teams play each other how is this fair???? And of corse they assured me it was. Well all I could do was pray. So I did. I prayed and asked God to show favor on my son. God can go places we can not. God alone can make fair was was not made fair by the world. I asked God I do not care if Hunters team wins or looses but can you please  build a relationship with my son through this game. Can you place Hunter were he is needed on this field and help him play his best game?I had faith, every single game Hunter played , I went early, I walked laps around the field with my son and prayed over the whole field. I taught Hunter how to make prayer circles. We circled the field in prayer. Hunters coach put him at first base, he thrived there. Hunter ended up getting his friends out . Turns out God made Hunter a pretty good hitter as well. There was one game in particular that Hunter hit 6 home runs in a row. I'm not kidding at all, the other teams coach actually called and reported my son and his coach and said Hunters bat had to be illegal. The baseball league sent someone to my house to get Hunters bat and take it to get measured and weighed. Of corse it was legal. All I saw was my 8 year old intimidated grown men . I saw Gods favor actually come to life. That wasn't all, God took it to another level I didn't see coming. Hunter had to play against his friends and before the game I walked outsite to tell Hunter get ready we had a game and I saw him sitting at the picnic table praying:) I stood there with tears in my eyes listening to Hunter 8 years old saying" I don't care if we win or loose let us all have fun , please let me play well in front of my friends on the other team and this game is for you God. " he finished just like I alwayed finished prayers with him at the field" my bat is my rod my mitt is my shield" amen!!!Hunters team lost big but Hunter hit a grand slam and hit ball over the fence:) all the kids from both teams stopped the game and ran to hug Hunter. They let him run the bases while the coaches search over the fence in the weeds for the ball to give him. That is gods favor. All season Hunter took his bat and wrote in a sharpie marker all the games and dates God allowed him to hit a home run. The bat was covered. When he made all star the coach that overlooked Hunter became his new coach. During all star season kid after kid saw Hunters bat and asked what was wrote all over it. Hunter explained proudly God used me to hit a home run. The boys thought that was cool. I'd love to tell you that all star season was great and easy for Hunter but it was anything but. It seamed like the more we prayed the harder it got for Hunter . He never gained favor with the new coach but he continued to gain favor with God. All star season ended and by the end we as a family were all exhausted emotionally. From there Hunter knew God is alive in him and he knew how to talk to God. Hunter continues to thrive at sports no matter the circumstances. We no longer worry who's on his team or who the coach is. Now we know and Hunter knows God shows favor on him. I could give you example after example of Gods favor in our life, Gods favor is real and it had a power all of its own that is untouchable. Do not get discouraged by the worlds favor but instead grow stronger in faith and confidence of Gods favor. God can go places we cannot , he can go to the hearts of those we cannot. Ask God to teach you His favor. Ask Him to remind you of when He showed you favor and you may have not noticed.since this I have noticed many moms grow angry and offended when this happens to their own kid. I just tell them doesn't matter if team is fair or win or looses but your child could have a great game, focus on that. Psalms 5:12 for you bless the righteous oh lord, you cover them in favor as with a shield. And HE does. He really does, just like Hunter and I prayed my bat is my rod and my mitt is my shied. Ask God to cover your family in favor as a shield.

How to not have a Groundhog Day !

I'm sitting here tonight after another heavy day of dealing with difficult people and uncomfortable situations. Another, another , another. This is what God keeps bringing to my mind tonight. Another. Do I thank Him for another day and another chance? Of corse I do, but repeating another difficult day over and over is surviving, not thriving. What is thriving? Definition is: to prosper, to increase. So why do we repeat dealing with difficulties daily to the point of mental exhaustion? Ok let me explain it simply. Wake up , go face the world, get kicked, be kind, come home pray Lord help me with this situation . Repeat,  repeat. A year ago God showed me you cannot change difficult people but He can change your outlook. But even though I see them now as spiritually handicapped and feel sorry for them and I'm not reacting or lashing back out at them. It's still another day, they r still there. Even though I'm growing and maturing daily with God, I'm not done with this. I asked God tonight , how do I go from surviving to thriving at this? When do we get comfortable in uncomfortable situations ? When Lord, do we sleep in the middle of a storm? Matthew 8:24 suddenly a furious storm came up on the lake, so that the waves swept over the boat. But Jesus was sleeping.
Not sitting, not resting He was asleep. So my question has an answer, because Jesus not only survived the storm but thrived in it. Now Jesus knew difficult, really difficult. But how did he not just survive earth but thrive forward with Gods plan? First of all LOVE. This is true, pure, filtered, love. Agape:is selfless, sacrificial, unconditional love. The highest love. Jesus loved God with the same love He loved Him. Jesus loved God so much He knew the only way to show God His love was obiedence. Jesus knew that his heart belonged to God, anything that happened was flesh wounds. No man can separate what God has brought together. I have had the pleasure to experience agape . I love God so much that for me the only way I can think of to show Him my love is to respect HIS WORD ( fear of The Lord) that I become obiedent. I have to stop trying to fit scripture in my life and fit my life into the scripture. How do not have another difficult day? How do I thrive ? How do I sleep through a storm? Easy, Do what Jesus did. Matthew 8:26 stand and rebuke the winds and the waves. You thrive by having faith and knowing by the power of Jesus Christ in you, you can rebuke the difficulties one by one. Because God first loved us we know this love. If we know we can stand and rebuke we sure can sleep in a storm. We can thrive through obiedence.

Greatest gift is love 😍❤️❤️❤️❤️

What is your craft? What do you do that seems easy to you but hard to others? What comes easy to you was first your interest , then you learned about it. It sometimes takes years to make it look easy. It   Takes longer to be a master at it. What about during high school, you had an interest go to college learn what you need for a associate degree, learn more  to get a bachelor, learn more to get masters and so on. But the interest was there right. It just came to you one day. And how far you take it is up to you. The holy spirit was given to all who except jesus . Its there it is in you. It has more power than just being there. There is knowledge , wisdom, discernment, faith , healing, miracles , prophecy , tongues, interpret. 1 corinth 12:11. But one and the same spirit works  all of these things, distributing to each one individually as He wills. So you got the gift the craft the interest in there . How much you want to learn, how much time do you want to put into developing your gifts is up to you. The spirit in us wants to give us all , but we must want to learn what each one is is how God want me ( Angie) to use them. The spirit wants to teach us how to use them to encourage and revive and direct the spirit in others for Gods glory. I loved hair and makeup from the time i was little. I went to school for it and graduated in 2000 over 14 years i continue to learn about it. Now to me its easy to do anything its like  an instinct. I can look at any person see them as they are face shape and see what cut color make is needed or not needed to make there natual beauty shine. Now add the spirit gifts to my craft, not only can i help fix the outside but i can see a need inside each believer, and listen and encourage them . Afterall every job is a service. You are serving each other how much though? Give a man a fish , he eats for a day. Teach a man to fish he eats for a lifetime. This leads us to vs 27 you are all the body of Christ there are apostles, phrophets, teachers, miracles, helps, etc . Same spirit given free rain in you through love can be all of these through you when needed. The way God showed me was a baseball team. You have a pitcher , catcher, 1,2,3 baseman etc. every player helps each other . Everyone is important. Everyone serves each other. Everyone is important even parents watching , the man that cuts the grass for the field. Can not have a ball game with out everyone. To win the game, a team must work together. You must help each other. You must be thankful for every person because they are all needed. Then you have a coach, who places you where He needs you, and you work and learn how to develope your craft there. The stronger you are at your place on the  field the more help you are to your team. What does  it take for your coach to send you to all stars? You like your place your interested in it so much you practice it in your free time for the benefit of the  team. What does it take for the little league all star to take it to pro? What does it take for a high school student  interested in hair and makeup to get to a master stylist? A gift! What i learned after 14 years is not what i can do or add to make someone beautiful its knowing what to take away. Take off some dead ends take off too much makeup take off the insecurity. Show them less is more. You dont need to hide behind all that mascara you dont need long thin overbleached hair. You dont need to try look like anyone else, your beautiful naturally, let me show you. It takes away from your natual beauty when you spend alot and try to look like someone else. We are supposed to all be on one team . We all makeup the body of Christ as we were made naturally, beautifully. Take the gift Accepting Jesus He gave you, ask God help you magnify to you how to take each gift pro or get a masters in. I remember i was at a ball game watching my 8 year old play. Hunter prayed before the game he was playing against his friends . He asked God win or loose let me play well and all of us have fun. He said God my bad is my rod my mitt is my shield, this ones for you. That game , im not kidding he got up to bat and hit the ball over the fence off the field. The other team won , but all his friends talked about for weeks was Hunters hit. I asked God what would it take for me to be up at bat? What would it take for me to hit it over the fence a grand slam for you? Well , i asked this question for a year with RELENTLESS STUDY. Then i realized as Hunter did before the game, doesnt  matter if i win or loose i just want to do my best and its for God. Chapter 13 vs 3 although i bestow all my goods and feeds to the poor ,  and though i give my body to be burned, but have not love, it profits me nothing. No matter what you do for others if it is not out of pure love and respect for God and his people to prosper . Its all for nothing. The greatest gift God gives is love. Share His love.

Stay calm pick a spot

My father in law makes recurve bows for hunting. On every one he engraves the words " stay calm pick a spot" .I asked him what do u mean by that ? He said when your hunting and you see your target, your adrenalin kicks in  if you control it and stay focused on one spot of the target, you will hit it. As i was asking the question God was showing me another answer . In any stressful , emotional, exciting situation. Identify the emotion you are feeling anxiety, fear, stress etc. ask me to search hour memory for the fitting scripture. You will find peace that surpasses all understanding. Cast , your burdons, questions, fears to me immediatly. I am in control. Stay focused on me. Stay focused on my scripture my word. I will hit the target through you. I shot one arrow to earth one perfect arrow( jesus) and i hit my target through Him. This happens alot lately . I can have a conversation and hear God in them all. Listens to Him through others conversations. Key is listen for Him

I know you:)

Luke 13:25-28
This is about the narrow gate: there are levels to your relationship with God , just like any relationship you have here. It takes interest, attraction , love , patience, endurance, faith etc. ask any couple that has been married  60-70 years or more, were there hard times , what does it take to make it last ? Love and  exceptance is proble at top of the list. The narrow gate is difficult. So difficult that Jesus said vs 24 many will seek  to enter and not be able. Let me give you a great example of this. I have ADHD . I have my quirks , to say the least. I am aware. Honestly as an adult now approaching 40 I can say this all my life I felt alone and in my own world. My brain is unique as everyone's is but I am made more aware of it every min of every day. I have a lot of ideas and solutions floating around in my head I just have a harder time getting it started. Therefore you become anxious fidgety restless and eventually angyry until you figure it out or get help. There is much more but I'm not going to get into all about me for a reason. Anyway I have finally after all these years have a understanding of me. For a most important reason , my son is exactly like me. I have been through a lot in life trying to get to this point in life that I love me. I understand God took his time in making me quirks and all it made me , me. I'm Angie no one else is all me. I have been miss diagnosed , over diagnosed , shamed , really sick physically from wrong meds to the point my thyroid was destroyed. I never fit perfect into one diagnosis so they gave me many in my life . But I'm not supposed to , no one really fits perfect to any diagnosis because God made us all different. But. Now all I got is what the world calls ADHD , what God calls Angie. And I am just bursting inside of the fact that God even took time to make me let alone as fearful and wonderful as I am. I appreciate my master. I appriciate his work. I no longer have a need to fix me. If I did I would be telling God basically , you didn't do good enough I'll finish now. I'm saying after years and years of asking God for help ang asking God what is not your work help me let it go. Now I'm left with Angie. And I'm ok with that. When I told my family and my husband ok guys this is what kinda explains me. This will help you understand me the most. They said ok and that was that. Well, that hurt. I never said anything but, it hurt ALOT. How could you raise me from birth or been married to me 16 years and not want to go further into my world? I found out , well I knew but just had to now face my son had ADHD. He is nine . I didn't want children because I didn't want them to have my genes , but I prayed and asked God please don't let them be like me. Well, God had other plans. He thought about Hunter when HE  made me. Who better to help Hunter than me????  Only Him. So just like Mary I gave Hunter to God. I knew from the second I was pregnant with both my kids I was not raising them alone . I asked God to let the Holy Spirit guide my steps. Anyway , when I taked to teachers theorists doctors finally came home and even though I have it I threw myself into studying everything I could on it. How to help him with school everything. I looked at my husband and my mom and said Hunter has this  gift too. They said ok and that was that. All the hurt surfaced again but more intense because Hunter is and innocent child.i took a deep breathe walked outside and said Jesus , you knew you were different too and had to feel alone. You sought comfort in God knowing your father knows you. And just like you , I let HIM show my how well HE knows me. Please Jesus now help me find comfort in knowing you and I know Hunter. I want to share this with someone . Back to Luke , many will seek the narrow gate and not be able too. I can't being to tell you how hard it's been to get to the narrow gate. When you try santan wakes up and takes notice. But , God is inside you and He does not loose. I decided, one day 5 years ago I had enough,. I stood in my kitchen repented said good by to this world as I knew it and relentlessly headed through that gate. Just like I did all my life trying to let God show me how I was made, just like I dove into learning everything I have to to help a Hunter. I looked at the gate 5 years ago and said I see your face Lord, I'm coming no matter what. I turned and said, Satan by the power of Jesus Christ in me, MOVE. You wil have to take my life to stop me now, and you don't get that say!!!!!!!!!!! You are only a bump in the road move! And I walked WALKED through that gate. I have spent every sec with a God in prayer time and study since. For no reason except , I want to know everything I can about HIM here while I'm on earth. I don't want to wait, I don't want to waste time. I don't want Hime to say as HE did in the rest of vs 25 when the master of the house rises up and shuts the door, and you begin to stand outside and knock and tell Jesus you know me we had dinner I told people about you. And Him say I don't know you.
Does my husband really know me????? Does my parents?????? Yes they know my quirks and accept and love me but do they know how my brain works? Do they know how I think. I understand Hunter I studied everything I could about childhood ADHD. When Kelly had stomach prob I read everything I could on intestines . When I sought healing in a God he lead me to a great theorist who help me really get me. During all the theopy. I found answers of why my mom is the way she is and my dad and  my husband. I really spent hours studying their traits. It made me love them and appriciate them and how intricate God is. It was healing. Their traits explain why they say ok and that is that and my traits explain why there is no ok to me. I have a desire to learn and find a answer.
I have had hundreds of people ready my blogs , my family and my husband never have. God is sooooo amazing. You see learning about Hunter and how to help him in school, I learned something that healed this all for me. With ADHD children they need to feel hear see to learn . It has to be visual  to make the the words understood. So God knows I have to see things and feel things to understand scripture. And I do. That's how I can explain it cause God lets me see and feel every scripture I learn. So I'm not mad at anyone they helped me Know a Gods words. Kelly once said to me he wanted a Devorese I remember the feeling I had , I said to Kelly ok and that was that. I felt he didn't really know me anyway. He never wanted to. He wanted a Devorese . He wanted to give up.he didn't want to go through the narrow gate and stick it out. He tried he seek to enter and will not be able. Wanted a Devorese wanted to quit. We can not ever grow content with our relationship with God. We must always always always want to learn more and look at each level and say I want more. What's next, we have to stand at the gate and say I see your face and I'm coming . No matter what. Look at the world as you know it and say you are not worth it you are a bump in the road. You have nothing to offer me. You no longer have chains on me. I love you Lord. I want you to know me. Show me all you know. Then just like vs30 they will come from all over the first will be last the last will be first. Vs 30 to me is what God showed me. Now all I know about my family and friends I want to shephard them to the gate first. I want them to enter . I want them to get to know God and let Him show them how he made them. Then I can go last . That's why I'm writing this I want you all to enter through the gate. Let God really know you let him show you how and why you are masterfully made. You are free to love others with pure concentrated love. It's agape. There is pure love after you ask God to filter out you. You have to take you out . When you learn to love yourself the way God made you as the child He made you and appriciate the time the master craftsmen put in you. You love you. There is no need to be anything to anyone. You are out all that's left is love for how God made them. Today a teacher and a doctor said Hunter May have ADHD . Hunter look at me and said  nervously" what does that mean mommy? " I looked at him and smiled and said , it means God really loves you Hunter . And he said, " Really" I told him yep. He loves you so much He gave you a special gift. Someday , you will see what it says in the bible come to life. You will see blessing and miracles for real. You will see mountains melt like wax before God. For real. And guess what , you don't have to feel alone because you got me. Hunter said ok and that was that.:)

How do you rest and do nothing on the sabbath????

Ok on Sunday a friend asked me a question and I know many have this question so I'm going to explain it how it was explained to me. I asked God, seeked the answer and now I can knock, practice this. The question is .......How do you rest and do nothing on the sabbath??????well , first let's look at the definition of rest. Rest-the first definition is - relax, take a break. (Put you feet up. )That's the first definition. What the world thinks of when you think of rest. Second definition- be placed or supported. Stay in a specified place( his hands rested on the rail.) either way, YOU take a break. But how???????.do u do nothing or take a break?  Remain in God. Gen 2:2 God rested. He rested after His work after He created us. Remember the sabbath . Let's look at this remember the sabbath and keep it holy hebrew holy means set apart. In col 2  Paul explains that we are not bound by the old test and reality is found in Christ. Remember the sabbath and keep it holy. Remember Christ and keep Him set apart. Shouldn't we do this everyday? Shouldn't we be supported by God and set apart everyday time with Jesus ? Just as eve was deceived by satan our minds can be deceiving. Do not conform to the world. Do not think rest means what the world says it means. What did God himself do? Rested after HE made man. The sabbath was made by God for us to rest in Him. Think of it as a reboot, .My son goes to school all day and picks up a bad habit from another child when he gets home I spend time with him and stear him back on track. If I didn't , day after day after day eventually the habit is harder to break. God wants us to spend time every day with Him so He can stear us back on track and prevent bad habits from growing into strongholds. God created everyday for us to spend time with Him. If you go to church every Sunday and that is the only day or hour you spend with Him a week, how does your relationship grow? If I spent one day a week one hour a week with my husband when we were dating ??? Ummmmm prob would never made it past dating? Remember the sabbath and keep it holy . Remember God every single day He gives you and keep Him holy by setting time aside to be with Him. Build your relationship  daily . He is holy.  Remember the sabbath is pretty important cause it's in the ten commandment. We should set aside one whole day to spending time with God.but make go to church on Sunday not just for the sermon but enjoy fellowship. When you are building your relationship with God everyday, then you truly enjoy Sunday church. You are then free to use a gift , talent God gave you for the betterment of the church. Work Sunday school, collect offering, take prayer request , lead prayer. Sing, start a choir. Etc. We all have a skill for the church. When you are spending time with God every single day, he can show you what. Making snacks or coffee before sermon, youth leader, mission trips.you do not know till you spend time with Him. Enjoy church, help your church grow . Mature in your alone time with God every single day. So to answer the question , how do u do nothing on Sunday? You don't. You spend time enjoying Sunday

Giant problems....

Romans 12:2 do not conform to the world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind,that byTESTING you may discern what is the will of a God, what is good and acceptable and PERFECT. Have you ever been faced with a difficult situation and even though you pray, 1 month,  1 year etc. goes by and your still dealing with the difficult situation and still praying? Your problem , has to do with the world, right? Praying and not giving in , is not conforming to the world. Finally , you come to a point when your prayer changes. You come to a point , your out of patience and your  humble. You are desperate. Your are needy. You know now you are dependent on Gods help. Then you start praying about the same situation in a different way. You start , forgive me Lord for my part in this situation . I have a right to a clear mind in Christ Jesus . I rest in You Lord. Let Your will be done. !!! If you have ever been through this , you understand that this builds patients or in my case creates patients were there was none. We do have a right to a clear mind to serve Him. Be transformed by the renewal of your mind. Is simple . God does not always change the difficult person or situation but, better . He changes our outlook. All of a sudden, Iike David when he was facing a giant. The giant looks different. You no longer see a giant, you see (one man. ) the battle is no longer one on one with a giant it's one on  two ( you and God) against one man. Just a MAN!!! Your mind is renewed . Changed. You can see right from wrong.clearly right from wrong. In our mind , fear sets in and a difficult situation or person appears larger than it is. God showed you the truth. Just a bump in the road, we make mountains out of molehills and then God turns them into a grain of sand. Then you see if the difficult situation is even worth dealing with at all. This kinda situation happens again and again and yet again . God allows us to repeat a situation until all we see is Him. What is good and acceptable and perfect. This is how God helps us see and remove a stronghold . When you do anything over and over and over and expect a different outcome that's insanity ( Einstine theory) when you repeat the same prayer over and over and each day expect God to give you answer , God meets our needs not our wants. He can see the difference even when we cannot. Sometimes repeating prayer,  in our need , God makes us relentless and patient on His timing. How strong is your faith unless tested? God knows and is strength thing us. Repeated prayers in want. , well He removes the want. He makes your needs Him.
In all the time you have delt with this problem , you were asking seeking and finally God shows you now you are knocking. Now your ready to go be fruitful and multiply, be an example,  testify. Testifying to another is refreshing and energizing to their soul. If we didn't have the situation and perserviered toward seeking God, how can we really help?when God allows us to go through this let our faith be tested. Be confident keep asking seeking God will guide you to the narrow gate. When God allows us to be tested , no different than a child studying for a spelling test. Practice makes perfect. The more difficult times you have , eventually you Ace the test. Renewing your mind becomes , you see the enemy coming and you are not caught off guard anymore you are not afraid of a giant. You just knock! Do what scripture says. Have you ever heard the saying , If you can't beat them join them? Well, not conforming  is knowing God can beat them. Fall Goliath fall! David was young a child. He was as dependent on God as my 9 year old is dependent on me. God reminded David what he was good at as a child. What were you like as a child ? My strength was I was social I was full of energy and excitement . I loved people. David was renewed . God showed him Goliath was just another target to hit with his slingshot. He was dependent on God to show him what to do. As my son is dependent on me to show him what to do. What is your giant as an adult? Ask God to renew your mind by bringing you back to being dependent on Him . Go to HIM as the child He made you to be. With those strengths he gave you and ask Him how to use them to serve Him and watch your own giant fall. Not just fall but defeated killed , gone !!!! Being dependent on God is what He wants . To Him that is good and acceptable.

His hearts desire...

Psalm 37:4 take delight in The Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart . Let's examine this . What are the desires of your heart? Love, acceptance, plans to prosper????? 1corinthians 13:4-8 . You all know this.... This is the definition of love . All the things love is . Love is patient , kind, protects, trusts, hopes, perserves. Gal 5:22 what are the fruits of the spirit????? Love, joy peace, kindness , goodness self control. Etc. back to 1corinthians ... It also explains what love is not..... Envy , boastful, proud, provoking,evil. What are the sins of the flesh???? Back to Galatians 5:19 adultery, fornication, uncleanliness, lewdness, idolatry, sorcery, hatred, jealousy, wrath, herisies, envy, hate , murder etc.... If we desire love, well God is love. God is all the qualities that defines love. Love is who He is. If we desire it we have to accept Him. We were created in His image He is love therefore we are love. When Jesus gave us the gift of the Holy Spirit in the acention he gave us the fruits of the spirit to live in. In order to fully love you must accept Him. When you accept Him you gain all the acceptance you need. Then we are free to love and accept others without desiring it from them in return you no longer desire the sins of the flesh. . Because when you receive love and acceptance from God , nothing compare to it. No one on this earth can give u love and acceptance all the time. I often asked God how do I do this all the time without being drug down by by others that live in the sins of the flesh. Quite simply. Finish chapter 5 of Galatians. Vs, 24 those who are Christs have crusified the flesh. With its passions and desires. Flesh desires vs, 26 conceit, provoking, envy. When you become aware of what the flesh desires  you know God made you in his image , he does not have those desires in his heart, what desires does he have???? What is love? What is fruit of the spirit? If we r made in his image our hearts desires are the same as His. When I realized my life had no purpose the world could live without Angie Carpenter  but it can't live without God, I also realized my life now is worth living because God lives through me . People know Him through me. I am an example .galatians 5:25 if you live in the spirit walk in the spirit. If you except Jesus Christ in your heart you know He lives in you but , walk in the spirit is different. You must crusified the flesh. When you know desires of the flesh and you no longer have a need for them because God fulfilled the desires of your heart, then you walk in the spirit. You are a living sacrifice , my life is no longer my own for my own desires but now Gods and for His desires. The desires of my heart are the desires He put in there. The fruits of the spirit. Without the flesh desire you are free to love as in vs22 of Gal. Fruits of the spirit . Love, joy, peace, long suffering, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self control. And it's not hard and your never faking it . It becomes who you are. God renews your heart mind and body. You see clearly , because you do not desire to see evil. You love deeper because you know love deeply, your mind does not rest unless it's rest on him. Your mind is on fire . It's like a God just reached down and plugged all the wires of your brain in that was plugged up by desires of the flesh. My greatest hearts desire is Him . Draw closer to Him  as close as I can hear on this earth. I also have a desire for humanity and serving others. The closer I grow to God the more I realize less preach more teach. It's not how much I say it's more about what I do. Action do speak louder than words. But we must be in the spirit to be lead by Him I order to walk with Him. Now I delight in The Lord and He gives me the true desires of my heart. I guess now the desire of my heart is His hearts desire.