As long as I can remember I have always been a perfectionist. When I was twenty four I became a mom for the first time. My desire to become the perfect wife and mother became my soul focus. My passion lead me to becoming relentless . At that time I stopped living in the moment and started living for the next. How could my family fail if I was always one step ahead paving the perfect road?
I have been a wife for seventeen years today and a mother for fourteen. Looking back I remember each spelling bee, test, tryout , game and new job . I have seen many accomplishments but what is perfect? When will I feel I reached it? And more important what really is perfect?
I live in a small town and I see many moms and dads, wives and husbands seeking the same thing. The perfect IMAGE. We all want our husband to be the happiest and most respected, we all want our children to be the most loved ,accepted, and of corse the best at everything. I see others just as relentless as I was to get others to see there family as perfect. WHY?
A few years ago I realized this desire will never feel full .I was paving a road for my family around a town that just went in circles and never straight ahead.
What does perfection mean???
Perfection - A person who refuses to accept any standard short. Synonyms are purist and idealist.
Now I see .....God truely makes His people perfect. I am a servent of the Most High . I refuse to accept for myself or my family anything short . Its time for me to take my family off road now. Paul told the Romans, 12-2 Do not comform to the patters of the world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. That would be like me standing in the middle of town screaming you dont have to be perfect. Love yourself ,accept and forgive others.
I wanted my families image to be perfect to others but there is nothing pure about WANT. There is nothing ideal or satisfying in a false image to the world.
God says Thou shall not want and thou shall not make false images.
So for the past few years my desire for perfection has changed to say the least. God has renewed my mind by forgiving me of my imperfections and paved a new road for myself and my family. Now I truely desire to show the world love ,acceptance and forgivness that all make up Our Perfect God.
Seek first the kingdom of God and allllllllll esle shall be added unto you.
What does that mean? And how do I seek the kingdom of God? Back to what Paul said to the Romans in 12:2 ...be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that by TESTING you may discern what is the will of God, What is good acceptable and PERFECT>.
Dont be afraid to be yourself ,dont be afraid to accept others it may be the road less chosen full of test, but it is the road that leads to the kingdom of God and Perfect.
