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Wednesday, December 31, 2014

Eve was enough....

God created Adam and Eve. God loved Eve and she was enough for Him and Adam. There was no other woman  for her to want to be like.
We as woman compare ourselves to each other. We try to be each other , we even make role model of each other. We need to spend more time getting to know the woman God made us to be because we are enough for Him and others. We need to have Him as a role model , he can show us there is only one of you in the world, just like there was one Eve. He can show us we don't need to imitate other woman or compare ourselves. We are the one and only to Him and it's enough.


Thursday, December 4, 2014

Rafeki , Lion King

Do you remember that feeling when the doctor hands you your first child.
I remember one second being in extreme pain and telling God I cant do this ,its to much pain to bare. A split second later ,I was crying in joy . When the doctor handed me Olivia I honest felt like the monkey on Lion King , (Rafeki)  I just wanted to hold her up and show the world Gods newest daughter. I honestly felt the the doctor and nurses should have been honored and cheering . It never dawned on me they do this multiple times a day year after year and this was just another baby to them. Well, I felt that same way all over again when I had my son. The pride and joy that second is undiscribable ,you just have to experience it to understand
I remember being so thankful to God and telling Him Ill cherish this gift,this child. It quickly realized there was no way I could raise her without Him, and I never wanted to. From the second I held her it was so important for me to hold her up to Him for every decision. I wanted to teach her how amazing God was and teach her how to build her own relationship with God. Getting her dedicated was mandatory,and when she turned 12 I explained baptism to her. I not only took her to get baptized ,but I did it with her. She is 13 now and I have had the greatest pleasure a mom could have by watching her build her relationship with God .I get to see her unique unbreakable bond with our King grow with each new day. I really believe in what God says when He  said do not hinder the children .I wanted to raise my children from day 1 to be dependent on God first, not me. Everything I learned from God I taught them,I am in awe how much farther ahead they are than I was at that age. I think teaching them, I learned far more from them than they did me. I got to learn pure hope and pure child like faith .
Gal.6 ;2 Bear one another's burdons and so fulfill the law of Jesus . I started fasting months ago and now I fast weekly and its a way of life for me. Just like going to church on Sunday morning or doing daily devotions , it just becomes part of your new lifestyle.Psalms 69:10 When I wept and humbled my soul to fasting , it became my reproach. I have always held others in prayer when I fast. With each week of fasting it was like being pregnant and all those months you become mentally prepared for the job that you will soon take. Well, Finally now when I fast and God lets me know who Ill be fasting for I feel like I'm back in the hospital as the monkey on Lion King holding the newest child of God up to Him. That same feeling I had when I held Olivia for the first time is how I feel when God tells me who to fast for. I feel that love ,I see this person as a child of God ,his son or daughter. I see there innocents and helplessness it all come rushing out of me as I hold this child up high in prayer and present them to the King. I just ask God to search there heart and breathe a new life in with His own perfect breathe. I ask Him to guard them and protect them and adopt them as His own. I believe God lets us feel that emotion of child birth and love and protectiveness and all the other feeling that come together to for an overwhelming joyful experience, so we can use that feeling ,that same love for another as we hold them in prayer. Unlike the world and doctors and nurses I believe God and angels do cheer and get excited a new child is presented. After the fast its like raising a child you always pray for them , you continue to be confident that God has control now and you wait in confidence for the day they begin to build their own unique relationship with Christ.
The reward God give me for fasting is compassion. He really does make your cup overflow. I feel like I have a active volcano inside me that erupts compassion all the time.God has so much compassion for us , and although we only experience a fraction of it , its more than enough .This compassion is the greatest gift I have ever been given and All I can ask God is, Who Am I ?Who am I ,that I get to be the monkey that holds these people up to Him. I feel like I did nothing to deserve such an honor yet He trust me with it.
Dear Jesus, thank you for this tool you have given me. Thank you for sharpening it with each fast. Thank you for letting the Holy Spirit take over because I know this would be to much for me to bare with out you. I may not see each person grow in faith and build there relationship with you like I got to see Olivia do ,but  I don't need to . I know you will, and I'm thankful for you and I'm thankful you put them in my life . Because of each other we grow closer to you. Amen. I hope this encourages someone to fast for another. I hope this encourage someone to let yourself love another as Gods child. If God came to you and said ,this person is my new child ,pray for them , wouldn't you?  He does, we just have listen. If Hunter comes home from school and says his teacher is mean to him, I fast for her. If someone is not showing compassion , they are starving spiritually, I know to fast. When I see another mom at the kids school showing little compassion if any ,compassion , I fast.where these is a lack of compassion there is a need for God. Matt 4:4 Man shall not live by bread alone but by every word that comes from God. Gal.6:2 Bare one another's burdons and fulfill the Law of Jesus.Phil 3:16   Yes, sometimes I feel like its to much to bare , always seeing a lack of compassion , its feels like my family is a magnet for negative , mean people, but when I feel like that, I remind myself of what Christ had to bare for me. That helps humble me, then I'm right where He wants me ready to  do what He taught us to do by example. What He made a commandment. Love another.Matt 12 .28-31 Law of Jesus . 1.Love God the most. 2.Love one another.
Dear Jesus , keep me humble and keep me strong as I honor your Law. Amen.